How you see yourself means everything...

Hello, how's your week treating you?

The weather in Sacramento is windy.  As such, I didn't do much yesterday. The guilt settled in and so after a lunch of tuna, eggs and jalapenos, I went for a 2  mile walk.

During my walks, I have lots of time with thoughts.  Instead of worrying about everything, I decided to just enjoy the breeze and the pretty blooms. It certainly helped my mood.

On  my return to my office, I saw my co-workers return from their run. I  notice how fit and lean they are....  I am envious.... Envy is not an attractive quality in a person, is it?  I switch my thoughts to my old saying "I may not be where I want to be but I'm certainly not where I was." 

Then, I remembered how on Saturday, I jogged 1.8 miles non-stop.  It was hard, but I did it. I felt like a real athlete. I felt fit. I felt like a runner.... I guess I need to hold onto that feeling... It's the key to moving forward, right?

Darn, i forgot my zumba gear but i improvised. Came home. Changed and Daniel and i walked 2 miles and then jogged home.


Here i am... A hot sweaty mess. My hair is coming back. It feels softer. So glad when i can chuck the hats.

Nothing like endorphins to make you feel awesome.

Looks like dinner will be fruta...



And of course Tajin.


That's my evening...

You play, you pay

It's raining in Sacramento and when it rains, I find myself wanting comfort food.  My co-worker and I had lunch at this  little mom and pop restaurant two days in a row. When our gregarious Buildings & Grounds guy invited us to lunch, we couldn't resist. He's hilarious and we needed the laughs.  After many suggestions, he randomly pulls into this little place that's just a couple of miles from our office. When I got back to my office yesterday, I googled Dad's Kitchen and saw that it was featrured on Guy Fierri's Diners, Drive-in & Dives.  I couldn't believe Guy Fierri was in my hometown.

I wish I had my camera. This little non-descript place has a gorgeous patio area in the back. It was the perfect place to destress.  Yesterday we shared a tri-tip sandwhcih. I was  happy I sweated off the calories at zumba.

But then.... my co-worker and I just had to return for a BURGER.

What do you think? Delicious, right?

The waitress suggested we try the macaroni and cheese topped with bacon.  O..M..G... (I know, I sound like a 15 year old).  It's been 5 hours since I ate 1/2 the burger, 1/2 the fries and 1/3 of the mac and cheese.  Even though we shared, it was just too much. Why do I do this to self?  I know.. because I have an unhealthy relationship with food. That's why.

I'm sitting here looking for all kinds of reasons not to go to zumba tonight.  Tonight's class will be high intensity. It's raining. I should have no problem talking myself out of going?  Instead, I write this post... reminding self of the need to work out.  I feel like Mr. Meagi in Karate Kid "WAX OFF, WAX ON" But instead I'm saying CALORIES IN, CALORIES OUT.

Oh well, you play, you pay... in this case, you eat, you better burn those calories.  My behavior is counter-productive. I know this... but sometimes, I'm my worse enemy. 

Later, gators.

anyone else do something as repulsive as I?

I love holidays, but man... the sweets are killin me.  I'm doing my best to get back on track after Easter Sunday but I found myself defrosting a slice of white coconut cake that I froze after everyone left on Easter Sunday. I bought the cake because it reminded me of when I was a kid.  There were 6 of  us girls and my dad always bought us a white coconut cake for our birthdays. I made sure I sent the left overs to my family but I  had the ONE SLICE IN THE FREEZER. I found myself at the table last night eating it.

Then right now... as I dress for zumba, I found myself picking up a piece of candy off the floor. HOLD ON... I ATE IT. Please don't judge me. I know it's dispicable... I mean who eats candy off the floor, especially before a zumba class.

But that's where I am in the SUGAH DEPARTMENT....

I leave you all to ponder and make judgment... jeje  Really needing to get a game plan together to get off the sugar.  It's odd how it just takes over your brain.

Anyways all... I bid you a good  night. 

Question:  Anyone else do something as repulsive as I?  Please share. I need not feel alone, right?