My mother's day in pictures

I just love the ocean, don't you?  Especially when it involves the grands burying  themselves in sand.

 This is my oldest grandson and his expression is just priceless.

 My girls and I were walking on the beach and suddenly, they started walking like crabs.  Apparently it's good for the thighs.  Does it make me a bad mother for snapping  this picture?  Lol.

 My youngest and significant other...

 My oldest retrieving water for the sand castles.

And my oldest with her husband and MIL in the background. I think someone ate too many Tortas. It's moments like these that I love having a camera.  Priceless moments for sure.  So, how did you spend  your mother' day?

Up not down

Ugh.... Scale is going in the wrong direction! This morning weigh in is 189 lbs. Disheartening. Will start a food journal here. Perhaps that will help.

I will also be  happy when my hair is longer. Just saying.  I take random pictures of myself throughout this journey and the eyes never lie.  The window to my soul is not muy bueno today..


On a  happier note, I did walk 2 miles at noon and did zumba in the evening.  I sat out a couple of songs and sneaked out during the cool down.  It felt like "cheating" but hey, something is better than nada. After stopping by my daughter's house to pick up my bib for the Race for the Cure, I came home and made this for dinner.


Not gonna lie. I did eat dried fruit and a bowl of mango, strawberries and peaches with  lots of Tajin.  It was that or the chocolate cookies in the cupboard.  Old habits are definitely back and I'll do better to harness self-conrol. Don't you wish there was an over the counter pill for self-control?  Wishful thinking.  This has always been the  hardest part of losing weight for me...

Oh well, today will be better.

Wishing you all a Happy Mother's day on Sunday... Don't forget to hug your kids... even if they're all grown up.  Something I'm getting better at...

Life

Mine is bueno.  At least today. I woke up early, had my coffee and two cookies. I need to remove that part of my morning ritual. It's one of those habits I picked up during treatment. Truthfully, I've picked up several bad habits. It's just as easy to learn a good  habit as a bad habit, right?  So yesterday, I picked up some fresh veggies and dinner was chicken and sauted mustard greens, spinach, chard and kale.  Snack consisted of carrots and hummus so each day, I make a choice to be healthier.

My lunch hours now include 2 mile walks.  I long for the days where I would walk 2 miles at noon, then do zumba 5-6 times a week. I get upset that I don't have my old stamina.  If  you've read my blog long enough, you know I"m a self-talk warrior. I tell myself that I'm like an athlete who needs to rehab after an injury, except my injury is "chemo."   There's the physical aspect of recovery and the mental aspects as well.  I've cried in frustration when there are moments that my brain will not recall something or when multi-tasking is not so great. I tell self to be patient but of course, I am not patient.

There are things I can do to push myself... we all need to push ourselves, right?  So when my daughter asked me to do the Susan  G. Komen Race for the Cure, I said yes.  Walk or run, I will be there...

Guys, shit happens to and we can either crawl in a hole or start digging.  Life is not always fair and even cruel but there is the "warrior" in me that tells self "keep pushing... keep pedaling. Keep going!

Every day we have choices. Whether its food, whether it's a walk or jog to the park, or the cookies or the kale, or worry and anxiety. There is a higher power and HE is always there... We all  have something or someone that anchors us whether it be our faith, or our rituals.  The goal is to keep pedaling.

Told self to keep going as I tried to complete a two mile jog at lunch. I made it about 1.5 miles.. it's not my best but I'll take it... I'm still in the game.  Thank you Lord.

Feliz

Hey friends, how are you?


Happy cinco de mayo... I made tamales and played frisbee with the grands. It was a great day. I am still working hard to regain my stamina. Some days are easier than others but life is starting to have order....

I think tomorrow i will use my camera. Hopefully that will be a start to blogging again...

I am signed up for a 5k for mothers day... I might not run it all but it will feel great nonetheless... I'll keep you posted.

Toodles